MY VISION
SHARED WITH THE WORLD, EASTER 2006
May,
1985: After lunch one day I went to take a nap. I had just
finished eating and went in and sat on my bed, prepared to lay down. I
took my shoes off as I sat there and happened to close my eyes briefly, like
a slow blink. When I did I noticed something amazing. I saw stars, and black space, just like a scene
from a Star Wars movie. It was so odd I immediately opened my eyes
right back up. This wasn't the back of my eye lids like you are used
to seeing.
I
saw thousands of stars. It was unusual and I could not figure it out. I was
stunned. I had never seen anything like that. I paused for a second,
thinking how odd that was. Curious, to make sure nothing strange was
going on, I closed my eyes again. To my amazement, the stars were still
there. This time I kept my eyes closed and began looking at the stars. It
was like looking at a scene from Star Wars or Star Trek, where you
are looking at a bunch of stars against black space. It was as clear as a
movie. I kept staring and suddenly the stars started to slide slowly toward
me. As they started coming toward me they started picking up speed and
within a few moments, they were blazing at me at a tremendous pace and,
then, so fast they became a blur. This occurred so quickly I did not
have time to open my eyes back up, almost like looking at a car wreck
happening, amazed and wondering what would happen next.
Suddenly the stars were gone and I was walking down an aisle in a darkened
area like a theater with people on my left and right sides. I kept walking
until, in front of me, was Jesus Christ. Here I was, looking into the
eyes of my Lord and Savior. He looked like He did in the pictures I've seen.
However, there was one huge difference: no artist had ever captured the
amount of love I was seeing in His eyes. Pure love radiated from His eyes.
It warmed my heart. I couldn't believe it. I was overjoyed and overwhelmed
by His presence. He smiled at me and gestured for me to sit down with a
sweep of his right arm. I sat down to my left, His right, with the happy
people. I was so excited. I knew, at that moment, that I was saved and, for
this, was overjoyed.
Once I
sat down and settled in among the people with me, I looked back up at Jesus.
He was no longer looking at me but, instead, was looking back up the aisle
where I had just come from. I looked to see who was next, and there was
Lisa, my ex-girlfriend who had broken up with me 2 years earlier. "Oh, my gosh!" I said to myself, "It's Lisa." I looked
back to Jesus and He was no longer looking at Lisa but, instead, was looking
at me. He was shrugging his shoulders as if telling me he didn't know if
Lisa would be saved or not. Immediately I thought "Oh, my gosh, Lisa is not
going to make it!"
I
turned to see Lisa again but she was gone, replaced by a friend of mine whom
I had had a falling out with and was no longer friends with. His name was
Tal. Again, I thought, "It's Tal!" When I turned to see the Lord, He was
looking at me and shrugging his shoulders.
Then
the Lord spoke to me, without moving His lips, just thinking to me and
looking at me intently, He said, "you need to help these people."
Immediately, without
speaking out loud but thinking, I said, "Lord, these people did a lot of bad
things to me. They hurt me..."
As the
words came out of my mind the Lord's eyes went to a sheepish look and I saw
hurt fill His eyes and I realized He had died for my sins and had forgiven
me of my sins, yet I was holding petty anger toward these two people. I
felt sudden overwhelming shame. He had nails driven through His hands for
me, yet I allowed contempt in my heart for these people whom I once loved so
much. And His look changed as quickly as the shame registered in me, but
His look went to compassion and forgiveness for my reaction. The love in
His eyes at that moment made tears form in my eyes.
[I am
going to locate my original diary with this information as I want to be sure
of the exact words the Lord stated about this exact part of it. I typed up
the document in 1998 from memory, but still have the original entry in my
diary from the day it happened – will clarify in near future. The other
version of this from memory is at end of vision.]
The Lord had indeed forgiven me for everything I'd
done but I couldn't let go of the little bit Lisa and Tal had done. I told
the Lord, "Lord, I am so sorry, I am so wrong. Please forgive me."
The
Lord smiled at me with those eyes full of love and said, "Son, you
understand, it's alright. Just help them."
I
said, "Okay, Lord, I understand." There was another exchange of smiles and,
then, He was gone.
Things
went back to black with the stars back, ripping away from me at a thousand
miles per hour, completely blurred, then, slowly, slowing down until, again,
they came to a stop. I stared at them for a few seconds after they stopped,
and decided to open my eyes for a second hoping they would still be there as
soon as I closed my eyes back. I very quickly opened then closed my eyes
and everything was back to normal. This all happened while I was sitting
upright, on my bed, with my feet on the floor, as you would do prior to
laying down. Except I just happened to blink before I left that position
and noticed for the first time in my life that there were stars there. It is now 2006 and I’ve not seen the
stars since that day, that moment. They never returned. Maybe by sharing
this with the world this Easter Day, 2006, I will see the stars again. But
if I don’t I will always feel so humbled and so blessed to have seen what
was shown to me that day. When this occurred I had been a Christian for a
little over 2 years, having been saved April 10, 1983, baptized May 4,
1983. May these words find you enveloped in Gods Love and filled with
Christ Spirit for my Christian brothers and sisters, and for those of other
faiths, I feel like God appears to us in ways we can understand. We were
all one before the Tower of Babel, and we were scattered on that day. But
it was not meant to destroy us – just to slow us down. My belief is that
the Father seeks those that worship Him in Spirit and in Truth – no matter
what mountain you worship on. This is what Jesus Himself stated to the
young woman at the well. So no matter what your beliefs, may God as you
understand Him bless you and your family, friends and loved ones richly and
abundantly above all that we can think or ask.
In His
Name, Shep
Other
Version from Memory of Lords reaction
He said
to me (mentally also) "Son, I forgave you for everything you've done. Can't
you forgive them?" I was so overwhelmed with shame about it that I couldn't
believe what I'd said.
